A Person’s a person no matter how small

One thing that is different about this pregnancy I must admit is its a little harder to be as amazed all the time like I was with my first. It’s easy to somehow take for granted the fact that I am partnering with God to create new life and that there is indeed a person the size of a of a kumquat right now inside me. It pretty much has everything it will have when it’s born it just needs to grow, but limbs and heart and brain have done their most crucial developing already at ten weeks and the little one even has fingernails! Crazy I can kind of forget that but with having done it before and having a two year old around all the time somehow the miracle gets overshadowed oh and of course feeling sick doesn’t help.
But Leia and I watched Horton hears a Who yesterday and that quote made me think of this new little person growing so rapidly inside me (just last week it was the size of a grape every week it doubles in produce size lol).
It is encouraging to think more that another whole person is coming about through all of this and as I watch leia learning and growing each day I know at least more the gravity of what that really means. So here is to you tiny one I don’t know yet who you are but I can’t wait to meet you!

Cuddle Monster

Leia Juliet is such a loving little ball of love! She is sooooooo cuddly and that is awesome and I want to cherish every cuddle BUT when I’m nauseated all the time it can be really hard to take all the lovin. Sometimes it’s fine and even comforting but she just won’t gently hug or lie next to me most of the time she often climbs and rolls and knees and elbows. I so don’t want to push her away but gently control the affection somehow.
At what point does she need to not kiss on the mouth? She is all about wet kisses on the lips!
Maybe touch is her love language? I hope it’s her little siblings too cause she may be all over that baby as well…
I know the dogs are not huge fans.

Fat Pants

Having Leia was the most successful weight loss plan of my life but there was no plan I was shocked! You see I puked my way through the first 23 weeks of the pregnancy and lost ten pounds never had a huge appetite and ended up with no baby weight after she came out. If that wasn’t enough breast feeding made me lose more weight! I was actually thinner than before I was pregnant what the heck?!
I do not think this will be the case with baby number 2. I’m not puking so far and that’s good of course but the only way to keep from puking is eating this time, I don’t particularly enjoy it kind of hate it actually but that’s the situation. Plus with baby 2 you pop out so much quicker and I’m in this awkward place of not looking pregnant but not looking like I looked without a bun in the oven. I’m mostly just wearing maternity pants because I don’t care and they are more comfortable but I have a couple of two sizes too big for old me pants I use too 😦
This is bothering me a little. I’m not typically into obsessing over my weight The Lord delivered me from that game a while ago but I was just at my thinnest and healthiest I had been in so long exercise and diet had paid off and now I feel like a blob, a blob who feels milkshakes really help stop her from puking. Awesome sauce.

pop tarts and pregnavore

Thus far the nausea is more manageable than last time. Force feeding myself 24/7 seems to keep me from hurling, last time nothing did. I should really be happier about that, I am happy about that,it’s just that right now I feel a little worse than usual and it is just so draining feeling moderately nauseated all day! I just hate food right now, I have to eat all the time, don’t ever really want to eat, and the only things I want to eat are weird and usually totally unhealthy.

Top choices right now, soft pretzels with plain yellow mustard, cinnamon pop tarts (I think that was a slight craving I had last time to, so random) and I still eat a lot of peanut butter, kind of starting to hate that though I have eaten so much recently. I have been eating some avocados though too so that is pos.

Needless to say the healthy plant based diet I usually follow pretty much out the window. I haven’t really been craving meat so far (except one day I had chicken on my chipotle burrito and it was oh soooo good to me) but I do crave dairy and I want some scrambled eggs I am going to have to make some I keep thinking about them….

Another vegetarian pregnant blogger I read refers to herself as “pregnavore” when pregnant, no food values can survive pregnant food cravings! Our usual rules are off the table. You think someone who is usually health conscious would be doubly so while pregnant but it just becomes about survival between the constant nausea and the weird cravings. I have read some doctors don’t believe pregnancy related food cravings are real, well some doctors are jerks and I am sure none of them have been pregnant themselves. This is real and oh so weird and consuming!!! They are so strong part of me wonders is there some secret nutrient the baby needs in a pop tart or a slurpy (that was my big thang last time) maybe these things aren’t as bad as I know they are I mean why would I want something I haven’t eaten or thought about in years anyway?! Total mystery.

Times like these I always wonder what life would be like in the Star Trek universe. I am sure Dr. Crusher could just wave her little tricorder over me and no nausea, sigh. Hopefully I feel better tomorrow, it seems like the evenings are sometimes the worst for me. At least I have a husband that doesn’t really care if I make dinner most of the time, and Leia isn’t too hard to feed, now that kid eats a lot of peanut butter…