Slurpees (or anything frozen) are ALL i want for Christmas Easter and Hanukkah!

I love being on break from work, aaah. Don’t want to go back that is for sure, but I only have to make it until April so I know it will fly. Besides I need something to do that will keep my mind off registries and icees! Baby registry and just baby stuff in general, there is is just so much stuff to look at! If I get half of it I am sure I will be more than fine! I just keep thinking of things we might need, etc. Plus, just looking at the little clothes and blankets and things gets me so excited for her to come! I just can’t wait until April to hold her!! People want to know what I am most excited about– holding her! It is basically all I can think of.  Looking at little bonnets online today, way too cute. She will be here and ready to go to the beach this summer, got to keep her delicate skin protected 🙂

Ok so icees or slurpees, what is the deal?? This has by far been my worst craving, I can literally get to the point of tears over them, it is insane! I have found I prefer slurpees from 7/11 just because they actually have a small size, a real small is virtually unheard of anymore in America, but 7/11 has this tiny little cup by their slurpee machine and that is all I need, I just need a few drinks! Something about the little tiny crunchy bits of ice and the flavor (usually cherry is what I prefer) is soooo satisfying. I haven’t been getting them every day or anything, but I want to! I am going to try some fruit juice Popsicles and freezing my own lemonade to make a slushy type thing as a stand in, even just chewing on ice sounds really good. It had been probably over a decade since I had had an icee or slurpee, but something just happened about a month ago and the craving seems to be getting worse. It’s crazy and I know it, but I have never experienced anything like it, and I like food as it is!

I will end this post with a preggy pic for those of you that are not into FB, many have asked for pics so here it is! Me at 24 weeks!

 

 

 

 

Aaah I can see her moving!

We are beyond feeling Leia kick, now sometimes I can see it! To me that is somehow a stranger sensation than just feeling the movement. When she is in the right spot with strong enough movement I see my stomach jump. It is so crazy! I feel her move more and more, the most when I am laying down relaxed (or trying to sleep of course).  23 weeks, well past halfway! In the New Year we have diaper class (buying a bag of disposables for a crisis pregnancy center made me even more sure I would like to do cloth, yikes!) birthing class and loads of trips to the OBgyn of course. I know it is going to fly.

I am on Christmas break from work and so glad. Time to read baby books and relax (and feel kicks!) We are trying to clean out Leia’s little room, this break I am listing boxes of books on Amazon and starting to clear them out. We have two big book shelves that need to get out of that room.  Plus, David and I are trying to take control of our finances and get rid of debt so selling anything is a good thing.  Finishing up the registry on Amazon (and one at Target for folks who aren’t online shoppers like me) looking forward to collecting teeny tiny little girl clothes! When I get things cleared out more and we get closer to time, I anticipate trips to consignment stores, etc too. Though I really want to take a minimalist approach to baby stuff, I know our consumer driven culture is telling me I need way more than I do! (Plus, we don’t exactly have loads of space anyway)

I really hope Leia likes to wear dresses.  I see little girls at the school Christmas play and at church in their pretty holiday dresses and I just imagine Leia like that as well. I mean from a Mom perspective, as long as she is modest and respectable looking I don’t want to make her feel she has to wear things she hates, but I really hope she doesn’t hate skirts. Of course, not that we are talking beauty pageants and make up and craziness like that, just feminine, but still a natural looking little girl 🙂 I do have her first hair thing, a beautiful handmade cream colored rose from my friend’s Etsy shop. http://www.etsy.com/transaction/38239041 So sweet!

Pregnancy issues at 23 weeks, the big one right now is heartburn! I think I have just kind of gotten used to getting less air, though I know in the third trimester it is supposed to get even worse, but for now the breathing thing is less noticeable, not gone I am just accustomed to it I think. The heartburn is constant though. It’s really just annoying more than anything else. Back pain is starting to kick in, and my chiropractor can’t really adjust where I need it because I am pregnant 😦 Standing for long periods of time or sitting in hard chairs is not easy, but in general I know I am in the best time of the pregnancy, so I am trying to enjoy it. I am enjoying the baby bump 🙂 The more obvious it is the better in my opinion! I know David likes it too and that is fun.

 

Bust a move

Leia is getting big! I know this because now I can feel her moving so much more, and even by laying a hand on the outside of my clothes most of the time. She especially seems wild when I am laying in bed.  It is so fun and a little weird at the same time.  David finds it exciting, but he also says it is like a strange horror movie, and puts his hand on my belly and says “we’re going to get you out of there!”

I love how present it make her seem, such a tangible reminder she is in there. Sometimes I wonder if she wants out too, I know she has no concept of feeling squished and most babies like being squished when they are born because it is more like the womb, but I just can’t imagine not being able to stretch out myself!

Another doctor visit today, assuming another little ultrasound, it will be fun to see how she looks at 22 weeks.  Hopefully, no boy parts pop out lol! Not really looking forward to having to go every two weeks to the OBGYN which is coming up.

Oh she is getting going in there even as I type! Hold on Leia April is coming!

Fish out of water

I feel like a fish out of water this week, not because I am in a strange situation, but because like an actual fish out of water I feel like I cannot breath. I mean I don’t want to complain because I will take this over puking to be sure, but really it is getting harder and harder to breath.  Sometimes I am laying down or sitting or slowly walking and I just suddenly gasp for air. Since Sunday I have been feeling like this constantly. It’s very strange! And it is also very annoying and at times a little unsettling not feeling like you can really breath very well. I am told it will just get worse with the third trimester too, I thought labor was all about the breathing too!

Oh well, Leia doesn’t seem to mind, I feel her little movements growing stronger by the day! The force is strong with this one I can tell 🙂

Is it crazy that I feel jealous when I hear about other people having their babies or see other people with babies, I mean it isn’t like I am not pregnant?! I just want to hold her so bad! I can’t wait to look at her little face and start to get to know her. I just wonder what she will like and what her personality will be like, how much will she look like David and how much like me?

David got to feel her move a couple night ago, still hard to tell most of the time, she isn’t big enough for random people to feel her move by putting their hand on on my belly outside my clothes (not too sure how  I feel about the hands on the belly thing anyway honestly, oh well), but it was enough for him to feel it so that was neat. He is able to get more excited as there is more outward evidence of a baby.

 

The belly, breathing, and the second trimester

21 weeks now.  Now that I am comfortably in the second trimester I feel I should share my experience for friends who have not been pregnant yet or are newly pregnant, because it might help some women to have more balanced expectations for this time than I had. I just heard things like, you will have so much energy and you will feel great.  For me, I definitely feel BETTER! I am not throwing up all the time finally, though my queasiness in the morning has not totally evaporated I am pretty much nausea free throughout the days and evenings. So that is a huge relief (though it wasn’t until week 19 or so that I stopped throwing up, so there was nothing too magical about week 13 for me be warned).  Do I feel great? That would be an overstatement. I still get tired easily and out of breath really easily. I can just be sitting and feel like I have to catch my breath all of a sudden, it is weird to be sure.  So one thing I have learned from 5 months of pregnancy is it is different for different people along the way, don’t get too attached to any textbook ideas of how it will play out. Curious to see what the next one will be like (I sure would like a little less nausea pretty please).

So physically, I am feeling, well pregnant, but mentally increasingly happy for the coming of Leia! (though sometimes that happy comes out in tears because I saw baby clothes or any other random thing that makes me teary eyed, and lately I have gotten a little nervous about labor and delivery, etc, but no crazy fits of anger or pregnant temper tantrums though, David says I am a very easy pregnant lady!).

The belly is coming along.  I am getting cramps here and there as it is stretching and growing more. I try and get up from the bed or a seat slowly because getting up fast seems to trigger little pains (all normal and expected according to reading). The weird thing is I almost feel the need to hold on to it when I get up, like its going to fall or something. That sounds weird, I am not sure how to describe it, it just doesn’t feel normal 🙂 I like wearing belly bands for extra support. I LOVE LOVE my body pillow that is shaped like a big C, it supports by back and my belly at the same time, it’s my new best friend! I will be at my desk and work and longingly think about curling up with my body pillow at day’s end, aaah.

Looking ahead to more doctor’s visits, I think I get one more before they start going from every 4 weeks to every 2 weeks, really glad we get ultrasounds each time we go otherwise it would be really boring. Getting ready to sign up for birthing class, we have a cloth diaper class in a month or so, and I am going to be reading up on breastfeeding, something I am both excited about and feeling totally clueless about. So moving ahead towards April as best as I can I think, feeling and looking more pregnant every week! (Oh and starting to get very excited about the fact that in about 3 1/2 months I will be a full time Mom )